reality check

i guess a lot of you by now will have heard about ahmed hasan, the 17 year old boy who got stabbed and died at desbury train st yestrday abt 2pm.

i didnt know him but he was doing his a levels at heckmondwike grammar, same place i did mine just 2 years ahead of my brother. i couldn't sleep last night thinking about it and what his family must be going through having their son murdered in cold blood like that and about eid on wednesday. then i thort about the countless number of times i've used that train st to go to leeds and manchester and i suddenly rembrd when i arrived ther from cov on monday and how uneasy i felt with that gang of chavs walking behind me as i wlkd out the station.

may allah forgive him for any sins he may have had and give his family strength to cope with their loss. ameen.

Somethin is changin' inside you

another meeting...

andy: "zakary we got our poster presentation coming up, its worth a fair amount of this project, so what is the aim of the poster, what sort of stuff should we present, the commercial aspect or our progress to date?"

zakary: shrugs his shoulders "it is upto you...woteva U want to present"

- which i think it's great coz i reckon we should fill the entire 6ft by 3 ft poster with our favorite childhood programs, from 5 to now, showing how the genre of the programs we watch over the years changes. i reckon thts make us stand out...

but am glad the terms over, i rekon i been relatively organised this term, had a 3pm dedline today, guess wot tym i met it- 10 FUCKIN 30!!!!! Oh yeah... am on fire, i myt even pack now for bristol 2morro (goin 2 stay with zainab for a few days)! and u kno wot i realised abt mself, tht i actually like fluid mechanics and thermodynamics, but ther the only area of engineerin i like! i can actaually read a book on fluid flow or thermodynamics for a long tym wylst maintaining interest. this is quite significant for me coz i cnt read a piece of text for longer that a paragraph and maintain concentration. then it got me thinkin, if i was to go into engineerin, the area tht wud appeal to me most is engine design, tht wud hav thermo and fluid in it and i would actually like to do tht... but then i rembrd tht am shit at it lol... so bak to business management it is...

another meeting...

me: "zakary, i've been researching the coefficient and i can't find one suitible for the pipe, and i can't estimate it accurately, what should i do?"

zakary: "do more research"

me: "err...ok, any pointers to wer i shud research?"

zakary: "u shud read the literature"

(Genius! an here's me lookin at the feckin sky for inspiration!!)

slash

been a bit of shyt week really, especially for the project which is really strtin to piss me off...
evry week the supervisor trashes the work i don and tells us we havent made progress as we shud hav. the reason for that is, he's briefed us on the project and he knows exactly wot he wants us to do and wot our next steps shud be... but he won't tell us, insted he'l jus make u feel shit for gettin it wrong, so this week after the "you haven't quite done what you shud have" i sed, "ok zakary, wot do you want us to do?" so he replies, "well im not really here to tell u wot to do, im really here as more of an advisor" (translation: keep guessin' sunshine, and ill keep trashin u for every wrong guess) ARRGHHH!!

saaran, i think we shud see other ppl

u kno wot, i really need to get out more and socialise with ppl...
thts the danger wen u liv with a close frend, u jus cnt b bothrd to go out, u jus stay in, chill, chat shit and on the rare occasion u do feel like goin somwer u go 2gether. wen yor bak home, u go out and meet frends and socialise with other ppl...
ok so from now on, i'll go out at least once a week and do something outside this house, this week that can be the charity dinner...

oh and if u havent noticed, my dear (probably non existant) readers... i hav now decided to try and live a "full & wholesome" life. woteva that means. so in each post, ill discuss wot i need to change and how ill do that (oh yes, yor all in for a treat). next time itll be the classic "omg im so fat, i need a healthy diet and exercise routine" or did i already do that last time?

bak 2 tv...

startd watchin prison break now, its one of the series i was avoidin coz i knew id get hooked. wot makes it worse is that bcoz ive jus strtd watchin it, i have like 3 seasons 2 watch!! i cud quite easily watch all 3 seasons in abt.... 4 or 5 days (if i had them) but im gonna pace mself... havent been doin a great job of that so far but from now on ill limit it to 3 episodes a week, but it wud help if fish wasnt so damm hot!

my brothers came down yday, we went to the MPH show at the NEC, and i saw jeremy clarkson, james may and richard hammond in the flesh (thts not very interesting is it)... the show was quite good, i lov all them daredevil stunts, so cool! we also ate out twice.... once at a halal chinese restaurant... mmmmm deep fried oily spring rolls.... wow i hav been eatin a lot lately, especially since they opened a "Costa Coffee" 5 mins from my place, me and saaran been spendin 2 much time (&money!) there... but am jus tryna build up a layer of insulation for these cold, harsh winters wen food is scarce and the air is icy....

4th year project

im currently in the process of writing up my project (or dissertation to the rest of the world) and u know somthin, i neva thort id say this, but i actually miss The adam! ...amazing wot havin to write a 60 page report will do to u...
i can sorta see the light at the end of the tunnel but i keep findin mroe and more stuff ive missed out.
ive had like 5 months to do this, how am i up the nyt before still writing it? fuckin hell i got shit loads to do yet
well, best get cracking

at the risk of soundin a little dopey...

feels like aages since i last blogged... zainab J came ova this weekend, we had such a laff, we went to stratford yday which was nice but shops were a bit small and middle aged. still we bort a few things, which we left at the restrant we ate at in Lem! lol i only realised wen we wer on the bus...
then we wlkd home from campus and my god does zainab walks slow, she's almost as bad as saaran! aaanyhoo we got home and i was quite tired, but me, salim and zainab jus ended up chattin shit for aages, orderd a pizza at 2 (thanx agen zainab ;)) chatted som mor then at around 6am we decided it would be a good idea to set our clocks an hour forward. still, good weekend... i shud go to bristol soon...,

coco pops munchers

a late eid mubarak 2 all hope u all had a good one

title..errm, i guess snatch?

hello every1,

week 2 now and im tryna find a career path, so far im thinkin of... teaching, consultancy, possibly engineering, restaurant owner, a mongolian nomad, a gypsie or bedouine, a gold digger and if i can b really bothrd to work my ass off and face 1000 rejections for a possible 0.001% chance...investment bankin (but not actually doin investment bankin, but cleanin or som form of care-taker work, coz then the only way i can go is up), but am a little unsure, i wanna do as little as possible and be paid as much as possible and travel the world... but i will pretend i wanna work hard and that am ambitious, focused, etc

other than that, the year has strtd off ok, i mean i fuckd up my first submission on tuesday-big style! and i dnt bother with any 9am starts but other than that, its all good...unfotunately cudnt make most of ramadhan this year, but i did go shoppin b'ham 2day for eid presents for my family (and of cors for myself, any1 who knows me knows am a shelfish shopper), bort fight club for my younger brother, for which i had to produce ID! am like "but am 21!", musta been been a bit tripped out coz no way i look under 18! neways i think hel really like it, it was at his age i fell in lov with the movy, yep round abt age 15 or 16 i went thru the whole fight club/snatch phase i rember i actually watched snatch so much that id practically memorised the entire movy! then i didnt watch it for a wyl, then i saw it agen recently and forgot just how funny it was, evry line and scene is just ace..."too tight?! u cud land a jumbo jet in there!".... "fish, chips, cupa tea, bad food, worse weather, marry fuckin poppins...london!"..."It's a four ton truck, Tyrone. Its not as if it's a bag of peanuts, is it?"..."What's in the car?... Seats and a steering wheel.", i cud jus quote evry scene, but one thing i never got was wot did that pikey say ryt at the end wen he shoots bricktop, "ill giv u ya shooter ya...." cunt??
wow...didnt mean to write so much abt snatch... so in other news, saarans tryna fix me up with this guy, she's planned evrythin short of the childrens names, she's like "yor kids wud be soo cute, theyd hav his eyes and yor lips, u 2 wud go soo good 2gether, he's good lookin, intelligent, practising... so wots yor problem?" lol bles her, but i explained to her tht i only met him last week!

thts all folks

typical woman driver

is it jus me or is any1 els tired of them blond jokes? now im not blond so ther not offensiv 2 me, and they wer even funny at first but now evry tym i hear another blond joke its like, yes, ok, i get it, blonds r thick...i mean my god, how many "artistically" different ways can u say the same thing?!
another 1 which im startn to find a wee bit offensive is "typical woman driver."
now dnt get me wrong, i'm quite a chilled out sorta person so ill usually not say anythin, i myt even laff along. but wen its the 53rd time u've herd it that week, somthings gotta giv...my cousin happend 2 say it that 53rd time, so i thort ok, he seems rather convinced, perhaps i shud lightly challenge him, i cnt rember wot i sed but i didnt quote any numbers (bcoz i dnt carry those vital statistics in my head) and we had a lil discussion and as it turns out, its actually not as simple as "no woman can drive, all men can" there's a few hidden clauses in there, its really, "no woman can drive, all men can... (now this is the good part) EXCEPT white van drivers, bus drivers, any heavy goods vehicle drivers, taxi drivers, sports car drivers, young men, old men, freshies..." and i'm guessin ginger guys are probly excused as well? or perhaps men wearin the colour blue???
So in conclusion, the only people that can actually drive is a very elite group of middle aged men who: are not too old nor too young, who don't drive taxis, buses, sports cars or any HGV and who live in designated countries. well i was so glad i got that cleared up, finally! an explanation for the 50 car pile up i see every 200yards i walk down.

its not me that's wierd, its every1 else!

so this is the final year of my degree about to start, i was thinkin last nyt wot id like to do next year, i want to take abt 6-7 months off b4 i start workin and if this was an ideal world here's a few things id love to do in that time:-

• Hajj & umra
• spend 6 weeks in malaysia, singapore, brunei and indonesia
• trek the inca trail
• go to Istanbul
• and the most exciting one- ARCTIC EXPERIENCE with lars felt (a Ray Mears course)

of course the arctic experience is one of the ones id most like to do but am least likely to (bcoz its 2k excluding flights!) and bcoz my dad wud neva let me go alone.
so i then thort at what age can an indian girl in mount p say "look dad, am Xyrs old now so am gonna do what I want"? what if (god forbid) i was a 40 year old spinster still livin at home?
cud i then say "look dad, am 40 years old so am gonna go on the Ray Mears Arctic expedition wether u like it or not!”? actually, wud a 40 year old Indian girl eva say that?
Ive always been a bit different to all my frends around here, eva since I was little I wanted to be (dnt laff) a traveller, a nomad jus wondering around from place to place, then after I watched snatch wen I was 16, I wantd to b a gypsie! Now I wanna b a pirate after watchin pirates of the caribean (part 1 that is, the rest wernt tht good) I find it interesting how even tho jack sparrow has manky teeth, make up, excess facial hair and platted beard he still somehow manages to be sexy, cnt quite put my finger on it…neways I digress.
So like I was sayin, im quite different to the girls round here, I cant do the whole GHD/undercover boyfriend thing bcoz its bad for my hair and the best that can lead to is getting married to some lad from yor junior skool and move 2 streets away into yor mother inlaws house (or if yor very lucky to the house next door to yor mother in law) then buy a house nearby, have kids and spend resta yor life working off the mortgage… how depressing. But the strange thing is, every1 around me is ok with that! My frends, my prents… so I thort I met ppl mor like me at uni, but im soo not like them, ther all soo… decent; they do what ther supposed to, ther sensible they live a good life and good on them, fair play to them and as much as id like 2 b, im not quite like them. I kno that if they knew everything about me, they probly wudnt look the same way at me (not that im that bad, am a good girl really ;). But ther jus that good...i guess). Im not tryin to deceive them or any1 and im not tryn to hide anything but I was jus tryn to fit in but am quite different to them as well.

So to summarise, I’m quite weird… wow this soo loks like a post ill be tempted to delete but if deleted all the posts i thort make me look like an arse, i wudnt have a blog...hehee

when did he get 2 b such a handful?

my 2 yrs old nephews becom a real handful lately...
i thort id take him for a walk the other day, u know, show him the sites and scenes of heckmondwike, so ther we wer merily walkin along, then he wanted to cross the road and i sed no..... so he threw a tantrum and lay down ryt ther on the street! he startd kickin and hittin me wen i pickd him up, i sed a few stern words and managed to make him stop but wen i turnd round ther was a car full of guys watchin, it was soo embarassin!

neways, hows everyone doin with al the fastin? im bit worried abt my fitness coz i finally got it up2 wot is probably considered average and in fact, wen i woke up the other day, i was able to do 1 (yes ONE!) whole press up!!! i was so excited and i definately dnt wanna fall below that! but to keep up my fitness i have to do hi impact exercise but i dnt wanna get dehydrated, hmm...i guess jus once or twice a week should be ok. id go to the gym but i alredy tld few ppl ther that i won't b comin for a while and sed bye so i cnt very well go waltzin back!
though i am constructin my very own "do it at home" circuit trainin type regime but i know i wont stick to it (if i ever do start it!), it consists of runnin up and down the stairs, skippin, star jumps, ab crunches and my favorite....the plank!

the plank is an exercise that's very good for yor abs and 6 pack, what u do is u lay down flat on the ground faced down, u have both yor elbows directly beneath yor shoulders, clasp yor hands in front, dig yor toes into the floor and suck yor tummy in so that yor body is parallel to the floor in a straight line a bit like...well, a plank. do that for 30s, rest for 15s, then agen for 30s. usually yor 30s tallys up to 2mins, then it gets boring. but the more often u do it, the longer u shud be able to do it for, i usually do it after a work out and i dnt have manly strength so i can only total 1min 30s

RAMADHAN MUBARAK EVERYONE!!!

a new addition to the family

latest member of the family arrived 2day, a 40" lcd tv! woooo, feel like we been livin in the dark ages up2 now!
but u kno since i came bak from uganda, i havent been watchin much tv or spendin 2 long in front of computer, talkin on msn and jus bein on the computer tends to frustrate me even more now, its pobly a good thing if it means ill do more exercise, i've put on a bit of weight since i got bak as well. i thort id lose weight in uganda but i didnt, not even 1lb! i rember it was the same wen i went to nepal, i lost liek 3lb! i was liek "WTF, ive jus trecked all the way up2 Everest basecamp and bak!!"
oh well... wow my blog is actually really borin.... mwhahaha enjoy readin!

Mzungu!!

uganda was absolutely amazing, we stayed in a place called Kagadi in the kibale district in west uganda, spent in total... 3 days in Bundibugyo in the rwenzori mountains, 2 nights in kampala and a night in fort portal which was a bit touristified compared to kagadi. wow i got so much 2 say i dnt kno wer 2 start, altho a lot of it is probly not tht interestin 2 read... ill try to keep it in some kind of coherent or chronological order, but no promises...

the place we stayed at was quite rural, (and famous for its witch craft!) and the locals had never seen white/foreign people, wen we wlkd down the street, the kids would follow us, and shout/chant mzungu (=wyt/foreign person) pointing at us, in fact the kids even askd one of the Ugandan students with us if he cud bring a “mzungu” over so that they cud touch one!

the accommodation was very basic, shared a bunk with my room mate Lydia, I was on the top bunk which was as tall as me and had no guards and no ladders, so jumpin out of bed onto the stone floor first thing every morning really woke u up, well.. until I learnt that climbin down the end of the bed was much easier, and safer! Oh and the crickets are sooo loud! The insects are of all shapes and sizes there, I hate bugs and even up2 the last day id still shriek at them but even I cud appreciate the beauty of some of them and I thought itd be a shame to kill them, like this one insect that looked so much like a leaf, it was unbelievable, u wudnt think it was an insect unless u saw it flyin down, it had the leaf veins across its wings and it even had transparent holes that imitated a decaying leaf!

for work, we actually had some practical, hands-on experience in the workshop, which was a real laff and i discoverd the magic phrase, "oh i'm so tired, wish i had some manly arms here to help me..."

And our night in fort portal was definitely memorable… we went out to eat then we went to play pool after, played for the first tym eva! I played against nicky who had hardly played pool b4 so needless 2 say it was an extremely looonnggg game but I eventually won, so I’m currently undefeated at pool ;-) but that wasn’t the highlight of th evening, u c the pool attendant had nicked off with some of our money, so Brian nicked the white ball and held it ransom till we got our money bak! Wot a good idea I rember thinking, id hav neva thort of that, steal the white ball!

and on our last night in Uganda, I was a bit sleep deprived on account of the all nighter the previous night (to meet 2 deadlines which in itself is a tale to tell), but tht jus made things all the more interesting! first we went 4 an all traditional ugandan...Dominos pizza! then we went to a bar... i watched som guys play pool, they were very good, but then agen am easily impressed bcoz i cnt play the game, couple of my frends tried to convince me 2 try beer sayin that "if u live for 35 years (~optimistic of them aint it!) what's 2 hours of gettin pissed?" am like “yeh it dnt work liek tht mate” but it was cute how they thaught an argument like that wud actually work!, then we partied till 3am, then slept for 4 hours, then went to the craftshop wer the crafts lady sed i was beautiful ... then we flew home
....so my record for bein awake the longest is now...44hours...and that's me, 10hours a nyt zaynab!

Ill stop there, I dnt feel im doin justice the experience, im not much of a writer (as this entry clearly demonstrates) and the stories jus dnt sound as funny or interesting on this, but it was amazing, I made som great frends and had an awesome time, need to start planning my next adventure!

walkabout

im goin on a walkabout WOOOOO WOOO WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

well its not exactly a right of passage, its a field course part of my module and its a little west of australia (in uganda) but WOOOOOOOOO cnt wait, im goin 2morro, meetin dai and si at gatwick then wer off!! ill be flyin bak here on my 21st bday which means ill b 21 years old for longer than the rest of u losers not flying west on yor bday!

adios amigos

bye bye wani :'(

i realy shud blog evryday...coz this is my last week here and even tho im not leaving, most of my close frends r and takin with them, a part of my heart....hahahaa jus kiddin! but i am gonna miss em, wani left yday (she's one of the 3 ppl tht live in brunei :-P), i was gonna blog but i was 2 tired, she left me her white board which we used to use for a revisin technique she taught us all last year, quite effective actually!
i rember us all watchin the world cup last year, good times... we'd sing football songs, my fav was "3 lions on a shirt" so id written the lyrics to it on the white board, bt hadnt realised it was a permanent marker so its still on it in my usual scruffy, bearly readable writing, along with one of our take out orders- "tex mex, bbq wings, ribs, double cheese burger..."

fools!

evry father is protective over their child, especially daughters which is quite understandable
but i swear my dad is jus plain paranoid somtyms, he actually doesnt want me to travel through london, "bcoz of all the crime." well i guess he has a point, i mean out of all the 100's (probly thousands) of people that wud be at a london train station during the day, a criminal would surely spot a small asian girl of mediam height wearing normal clothes ahead of all the goths, 6ft business men and obese ppl, the criminal would say "YES! a small asian girl! tis surely my birthday, ha ha ha y rob/mug these middle class business men/women who are probly gonna walk down dark alleys alone when i can rob, in broad daylight a student who is merely exchanging trains..."

but of course i cnt say anything bcos if i do he can jus play the "yor too young and naive 2 realise" card, tht mayb so but am not stupid...well...anyways...
i dnt kno if any1 rembers when there were shootings in manchester and some other major city, cnt rember which but my dad was like "i dnt want u travellin 2 any major cities for a wyl wid al these shootings goin on" so hes like tellin me not to go shoppin in b'ham! i was like, yeh sure dad i "won't" go shoppin in b'ham, but of cors this was over the fone so he cdnt c me doin the quote marks ;-) ...genius-i kno

But i dnt actually feel 2 geniusy at the mo, im so worried abt results, in fact am more worried now then i was wen i was doing the exams, i was quite relaxed then, a lil 2 relaxed, id b watchin tv or id go 2 my housmates room and they'd b like "oh wow u got an exam 2morro?? yor so chilled, u must really have it under control!" i rember thinkin "ha! FOOL! if u only knew" and now i kno...

oh yeh, me and sena r finally havin the "houswarmin party" we wer plannin 2 hav in october! altho now its more of a "wer leaving this place" sort of anti-housewarmin party... well its not so much a party as it is jus a gatherin, dout itll b anywer near as big as the one we had last year but i am expectin all (both) the frends i hav 2 turn up :-D

~*~evry1s invytd! nxt wednesday after 6 at my place, dnt miss it!~*~

maxie's world

there was somthin on telly recently tht reminded me of this animated series i used to watch as a kid which i hadnt thort of in years and years...

Maxie's World! so i went on youtube and found the intro song to it and omg its jus bort bak sooo many memories, its all come flooding bak, being 6 or 7 years old and it bein the summer holidays (it used to com on during the summer holidays), watchin it in the kitchen of our old house, it being sunny outside, me gettin all excited wen the show started, i rember i sooo wanted 2 b like her wen i was little, wantin everything pink... hmmm.... tht explains my room and clothes now (altho my skirts and dresses rnt quite tht short!), pink curtains, pink bed, etc but cud somehtin i used to watch when i was 6 affect me now? i think the show was critisized for being 2 "sexist" or woteva but anyways, chek it out on youtube, type "maxie's world"

lost

ive jus watched the last 7 episodes of lost bak 2 bak and now i feel like a big fat slob, u kno like them hilbillys that are morbidly obese and havent left the hous in years, jus sit in one place all day watchin tv, man i need some excercise musta put on so much weight, cant even rember last time i went 2 gym, daren't weigh mself and now ill hav 2 wait till next year for the next episode of lost, hate waitin, ill have 4gotten wot happend by then.

went to a wedding on sunday, bumpd in2 my junior skool fren who i havent seen in years and my hi skool frend. on a sadder note, my old french teacher died suddenly of a heart attack last week, he'd been my teacher for 5 years. nothin much els to say 4 nw.

nothing lasts forever, even cold november rain

i cnt beleev how badly ive fkd up this year, the 1st exam went ok, then the 2nd/3rd and 4th were complete disasters, when i messed up the 2nd one i wasnt so worried coz it was jus one, then the 3rd one i think evry1 was feelin same but the 1 2day i kno i cudve done soo so much better but i hadnt quite committed the vital bits to memory, and now im half way thru and ive totally messed up...
and dnt any1 post any "im sure u did better than u think" comments

how many seas must a white dove sail...

with 2 days 2 go b4 my exams things rnt lookin 2 good, im havin 2 revise 7 modules so i been tryin 2 do somthin on evrythin evryday and now i find i havent done much on anything! sigh... i can jus c mself next year, long greasy hair, funky headband, old coat singin "blowin' in the wind" on the gitaar with the gitaar case open in front of me for ppl 2 throw their coppers in, which is gonna be a bit of bitch since i dnt even kno how to play the gitaar

SLAVEGIRL!!!
Make me an appointment with the optician, doctor (ask for the blue eyed dr, i like his eyes), dentist, hairdresser (Moshina) and a seprate 1 at salmas- i need the works. make sure ther not during step class (friday eve, weds or sun)
and don't spread them out during the week, make them all for the 1st, 2nd and 4th june (and if u must, then on the 5th), i dnt want appointments all week , i wanna get em all over and don with erly on.

revolver

any1 seen revolver? guy ritchie movy, i think. with jason stratham, its such a crap movy, dnt bother watchin it if u havent probly one of worse i seen in a wyl, at the end yor like...so what happend? or maybe im jus bitter coz i didnt get it hehehee

i cnt beleev ive moaned to evry1 except on here abt my exam timetable, i start on 23rd may and finnish on 31st may! thts 7 exams in a week, and most of them r 3 hours, on saturdays...AND ive only really had 2 weeks 2 revise for all 7! evry1 else finishes a week into june, so am gonna be all like YAAAAAAYY PARTYYYYY and ther all gonna b like shhhh... ok zaynab stop talkin to self...

which disney princess r u?

im still on campus, been here all nyt tryn to finnish this cwrk (and i been up since 7am yday!), still, its last 1 for this year woooooo its not tht hard but im in tht half sleep/half awake state and im gettin nower! hate cwrk, neways, i jus found out im pocahontas:

You are Pocahontas. You defy convention and sometimes do what is considered taboo. Unfortunately, others do not always appreciate your differences, so it's good that you are so strong-willed. You are loyal and you believe in fate. Your true love will find you one day.

don't u jus love those q-air's where they ask u if loyalty is yor strong point then wen u say yes, they tell u at the end tht yor loyal, and then yor spose to b like al "omg, how did u kno?!"

..an some fackin diddy donuts!

stumbld across balls of steel few weeks ago wen i was flickin thru the channels, i dnt usually laugh out loud at the telly, but it had me in hysterics! cant beleev i only discovrd it last episode of the series! any1 kno wen its bak?

coconut water

my bros and sis hav gon 2 old trafford 2 c bburn chelsea semi final but my dad didnt love me enough to let me go 2, and my sister borrowed my clothes 2 wear ther! still...am goin 2 the gym in abit..tht'll show em

barbie or sindy?

Its the hurricanes! the champion football players are hear to stay!! tu-tu tu tu tu

does any1 rember tht? old cartoon from the 90's my brother used to love it, we always used to fight cos mrs. pepperpot used to come on at the same tym and i wantd to watch tht... amazing the useless info u tend to remember... like the theme song to a cartoon u neva watched hahhaaha... u kno its funny i cnt usually find ppl who watched or even knew abt som of my favorite cartoons liek maxi's world and gummi bears and goof troop and everyone used to play with barbie and not sindy! wots up with tht?!

a moment of clarity

in the midst of all the cwrk tht ive had in past few months i neva really thort abt much else but lately since i been at home i thort abt y i chose engineering and i suddenly remberd y... 2 be unique, i rember my dad tellin me tht ther rnt many women in engineering and certainly not asian women so i thort.. heres an oppertunity 2 b different, now i think i may b mor suited to consultancy so am lookin into tht.

not really anything intresting to blog abt... found out my brother broke his nose wen he was 2 or 3 at nursery but didnt kno it was broken til now, dr sed may need surgery 2 fix it, my mum and sister wr so worried, but i told him strainght, aint no surgery gonna fix tht face... not much else hapnin...went 2 c kulsys (one of my frends from 6 form) baby other day... oh and if yor readin, raisa, zak and sami, i am plannin 2 c u all som tym in the near future...

aren't kidz cute

my dad was in cov on business 2day so had dinner with my dad in cov which was nice, id almost 4gotten wot my dad lookd like, we discussed what my future plans were agen (the conversation where i tell him i dnt hav any plans, i jus wanna travel the world) and he said the group we went to EBC (everest base camp) with was doin a trip to the inca trail in october 2008, which wud b awesom but cnt b plannin tht far ahed jus yet...

wot else... went 2 leicester this weekend 2 saarans sisters house, her lil nephews so cute, hes 7 years old and hes got a lil money box where he's savin the pennies to marry his sweetheart with and buy their mansion, how cute is tht! so i thought abt my lil nephew, he's abt 1 and half yrs old now and i phoned him, i said "hello hamza, how r u 2day? which cars did u play with? did u watch big cook little cook?"
to which he replied "fuck"

all nighter

as i havent slept in ova 26 hours (thts a long tym 4 som1 like me who needs abt 10 hours of sleep to be able to function properly the nxt day) i thort it wud be an interesting time to blog as i am quite liable to talk about anything rangin from my burning desire to be able to spin a pen round my thumb like the chinese do oh so easily to my struggling battle with a drug addiction... jus kiddin, but not abt the pen thing, i really wanna b able to do tht....

u kno wot i noticed abt mself... i tend not to avoid problems, if i c problems ahed or if i kno the predicament ill land mself in by not doin somthin then i dnt avoid it, i jus dive right in... take this cwrk for example, i jus cud not b bothrd 2 do it, all nyt i was jus messin round, tryn to make mself care, every1 els was workin so hard on it, and i knew wot i had 2 do, i jus didnt care enough 2 actually do it, so i waited to really close to the dedline hopin time wud put pressure but it didnt, so i jus handed it in incomplete... hahahaa a lab report without any results or graphs! i didnt even put the things he told us to put in the report and i kno, i kno ill get a rediculously low mark 4 it...oh well... thts jus one example but i do tht a lot and i dnt really kno y... i think i need to be more afraid of the consequences... wow this is an "interesting" entry hahaha ill read it agen nxt tym and think wtf?!

and i really dnt kno y but thers this boy on my course keeps callin me "sanjeeta" "hey sanjeeta, hows your cwrk goin?" "what's up sanjeeta?" i really shud tell him, the name your tryn to say is pronounced san-Gita.. GIta.

hula hoop!

we got no internet at home at the mo which is a bit of a bitch but it reminds me of a simpler time... watchin tv oh and playin with my hula hoop, i was doin the hula for aaages the other night, its sooooooooo much fun weeeeeeeee! err.. errr... i mean i was workin long and hard on my robotics cwrk...

tired

u kno how ive always sed guys wi long hair and ponys look gay and generall not hot... well theres somthin abt bono singin with or without you...

neways i jus had 2 dedlines 2day, one of which i messed up sooo badly, i dnt think ive eva handed in such a bad cwrk, i knew wot i did for the cwrk was totallly wrong and felt a bit embarassed handin it in in that state but then i jus thort 2 hell with it, ill cut my losses an hand it in, not really worth tht much but ppl, plz dnt ask me wot i got for the systems once we get it back.. infact plz dnt ask abt any of my cwrks...even if i ask u!

make or break?

so, i jus found out i got a lab on monda mornin 9 am tht counts for 10% which i dnt hav a clu abt coz i didnt go to the lects and he didnt post anything onlyn nor gave out anything, got the robotics lab this week for which i still gotta learn som software and the mechanical design and systems both of which are major pieces of cwrk in for same day, same tym nxt mond.... yeh its a lot less fun then it sounds...